In reply to bendurance:
I've been climbing about 4 years and until last month I think I'd taken 4 leader falls on trad. Not something I was proud of but it definitely gave me faith in my gear as it had always held.
Last month - climbing at Staden Quarry - I took a fall onto my gear and it caught. I continued climbing and slipped again - this time I wasn't so lucky. My gear ripped. I hit the deck, knocked myself out and bounced down the rocks. 2 hours later I was strapped to a board, bleeding profusely from my head, being loaded into a helicopter by mountain rescue.
I am now TERRIFIED of falling. V Diffs scare me more than E1s did 2 months ago.
A rational fear of falling is good. And trusting your gear is good. Knowing that taking a risk, is in fact a calculated risk and your gear is there to protect you is good. But consciously choosing to fall on trad is very bad!
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I think it's great that you've gained confidence in your gear and taking a fall is definitely a liberating experience. BUT please keep hold of a little bit of that fear of falling. And don't go falling on Staden again - although that just might be me!