In reply to Mutl3y:
Well, it's all mental, isn't it?
I was okay to free solo, rope lead solo or lead routes while protecting just the crux bit with a dodgy cam. Sometimes not even with climbing shoes, just trainers or approach shoes. I was never bold, but I was confident.
Recently, I have witnessed a climbing accident where my climbing partner hit the deck and had to be taken to hospital. I am glad he got away with very minimal damage, but I am so scared now that I bailed off HS, barely lead VS (which I climbed couple times before) and even well protected Severes seemed challenging. I used to lead up to French 6c+ indoors but the last time I have been to climbing wall I had a disco leg on a 6a and fell off that route.
However, I am still fairly decent at bouldering. I am still trying to get back to climbing and I am getting better, but I have never realized it's going to make such a huge difference.