In reply to Fultonius:
> (In reply to Jon Stewart)
Very interesting post, lots to chew over, thanks.
> I think the dithering may be a result of you not being fully in tune with your motivations as to why you want to attempt the route.
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> Do you climb for the problem solving? For the fresh air? For the fear (sounds like it's not this).
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think my motivation for climbing is basically like chasing a high from drugs. I guess I'm addicted to the feeling I get when I've pulled through the crux on a hard route, where the moves are cool and in an amazingly exposed position, and I'm on the victory straight home. It isn't just the pursuit of the physical difficulty for me - routes which are just a struggle from the start to the finish (cracks basically) don't give me such a massive buzz (unless they're on an incredible crag). It's boldness, exposure, and cool moves on small holds that give me a rush which I am forever chasing.
> Maybe you're climbing too much, but with not enough focus? I find I can commit much more readily to unobvious sequences when I'm really psyched for a route. Be careful you're not just "going through the motions"
This is crucial. Sometimes I find myself on a route and I just don't like it. The only reason I'm climbing it is because I started it and I don't want to be pussy and back off. Choosing routes that I am really psyched for, and adequately warmed up for, and not far to knackered or sweaty or whatever to climb is crucial.
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> Maybe you should go out and get on some well protected, hard, strenuous, blind routes and just battle, battle, battle. Force yourself to overcome the inertia and just commit. Falling is fine, failing to commit is not.
Maybe. Thing is, I think pushing my grade and falling off is best done on non-committing, single pitch crags where I can just ab for gear and what have you. But what I really like is climbing on big tidal sea cliffs, with massive overhangs and traverses and that kind of jazz that make them a bad place to push it too hard...