In reply to andy farnell:
>I'm not even a legend in my own house
Nobody is to their family.
Leg end, or bell end possibly.
I remember you saying you were giving up and getting rid of your gear and saying to you that you should keep your gear as it was probably a phase everyone goes through when they are not getting what they want out of it.
You will probably give up again as soon as a thaw occurs and everything is seeping and nasty, then the sun comes out and it is PLAYTIME.