In reply to rug:
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> Thank you for your words of support
Truth is like that sometime.
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> No, I am not a five year old child, but I did say I was also the sum of my life experiences, so I wouldn't expect to be. (In some respects I am still a child - but that's another discussion).
But since you were a five year old, you have consciously made choices which affect your personality and engender "change".
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> You are projecting an imagined view onto me. You seem to be assuming that I wish to change. I don't. I don't like myself, but I have no aspirations to change, as I value what integrity I have.
Then you have no integrity.
> To you this is 'bollocks', to me it is reality.
A self constructed reality, therefore a malleable, fleeting insubstantial, and of course liable to change.
> When I asked about the clarity of thought, I didn't just mean 'seeing that life is pointless and shitty'. While depressed, I finally managed to get an understanding of 4 dimensional space-time, and relativity. (It maybe wrong of course, but what maths I can do with it all fits OK).
Then you are psychotic, not depressed.
> If 'I am not going to change myself, because I don't want to change' is making excuses, then you have got me bang to rights with your last comment.
I'm not often wrong.