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That was a very interesting article, thanks for taking the time to write it, being open enough to share it and, I hope, provoking further discussion here.
It's curious how one can share things openly among a wide and varied online community that, perhaps, you wouldn't choose to share with your friends. I did, and I do, but I understand the difficulties. In one of those odd coincidences, there was a terrific article about autism in The Guardian today (
https://www.theguardian.com/society/2017/jul/08/david-mitchell-son-autism-d... ) that has had me musing over issues around mental health. Autism is one of those hard to define things, so differently expressed in different sufferers, and with no clear-cut edge so that many of us might read some of the signs and symptoms and think, hang on a minute, that's me...
And as with autism, where the cut-off isn't clear and we all might see a little bit of it in how we behave or once behaved, so too with depression; just where ennui and the blues turn into a depression that needs some form of help isn't a clear demarcation. It's an irregular verb; I'm depressed, you've got the blues, he's just a bit pissed off. It affects each of us differently. Thankfully, attitudes around this seem to be changing; in the workplace, when I was part of it, there was a realisation that on average about 20% of people could be categorised as 'having a disability', as I think it was put, and that a large part of those disabilities would be invisible. You can't tell from looking whether someone has epilepsy, or diabetes, in my case multiple sclerosis or, to get back on topic, mental health issues such as depression, yet someone who suffers from any of those conditions, and more, count as having a disability; and in many cases someone can move into and out of the disability category over time (I know it's a moot point as to whether having once suffered from depression you subsequently can ever be said to have lost the potential for it to strike again, but that's for a different conversation). That's a long-winded way of highlighting how issues around mental health are changing.
And I'm quite open about once having had my own mental health issues with depression and anxiety. I asked for help here, and people very generously offered it; and I have tried to repay that debt when I can if the subject is raised. Exercise helps with depression, that's widely accepted, and I'm glad you found a way to make it help you. Some exercise helped me but, contrasting with your story, one of the things that didn't was climbing. Trad climbing, that is; I've never been a boulderer and not so much of a wall rat either. One episode of utter uselessness comes easily to mind: a sunny May Sunday at White Ghyll in Langdale, thankfully, in retrospect, so busy we ended up on a Severe near the upper end of the crag. I was useless, scared witless on something I could usually solo easily, physically trembling, lacking any co-ordination and, frankly, a danger to myself and my partner. I spent the day casting envious eyes at people who were just walking and wanting to go somewhere, anywhere far away from any rock. Inevitably afterwards I felt more depressed than ever.
I recovered in time, and with the aid of a course of CBT over six months. What I learned doing that gave me the tools to stop myself going back to the dark spot I'd been in. And, afterwards, when sufficient time had passed, I started to open up about it. At work, on here, to friends. And people responded with patience, with amusement when that was what I'd intended, and with understanding. But taking that first sharing step wasn't easy and you have to choose the person or people with whom you do it.
But do share. Depression, anxiety, mental health issues in the wider sense need more people to understand about them and one of the best ways to get people to understand is if someone that's been there tells them about it. And you'll probably find that what you say will be remembered for the right reasons, and it may be that people come back with tales of their own, or to ask for your help.
Like climbing, a lot of mental health is about a good sense of balance and there's no shame in falling off; but with both, it might be a hard landing if you do and you may need someone to help you get up again. Here's to getting back up!
T.
(I realise having written this pretty much as a stream-of-conciousness piece that it might not be clear whether I'm addressing the author or a wider audience. Well I started with the first and then diverged to the second; I hope, neveertheless, it contributes.)