In reply to FesteringSore:
I did a bike race a couple of years ago - I'll never forget it. 10 laps of a 9km circuit with a short climb at the end of every lap to the finish.
The pace was so high for the fist 2 laps I was physically sick, all over the top tube and down my legs, I stunk - lots of riders were shelled, every time I crossed the line I saw my van and wanted to climb off - agony.
After about an hour the pace dropped and I could breathe - then the pace went up again and I vomited again. For the last 2/3 laps everyone was f*cked and looking at eachother thinking who's going to win this f*cking race - I attacked and rode 9km on my own and won. I puked again a few minutes after crossing the line. The next few days I was ill and in a bad way - was it worth it? I don't know. It taught me lots of things - lots of clichés.
If it's hurting me it's killing them. Losing is forever, pain is temporary.
true story.
E