In reply to mypyrex:
Very hard topic to write about on a forum without sounding offensive and/or insensitive, so appologies if this comes off as blunt.
> I wonder if some people have difficulty with such things?
Yes. Lots of people and probably for various reasons, which could include (either consciously or subconsciously):
- Thinking that this change somehow changes you and their relationship to you and not really knowing how to approach that change.
- The desire to protect themselves from emotional hurt they might expect to receive if they get stay close/get closer to you and you die/become very ill.
- guilt that they are well and you are ill, especially in the absense of anything you did to deserve that illness (e.g. smoking giving you lung cancer or morbid obesity giving you diabetes).
There is a lot of evidence out there that when people have a near death experience or know that they have a limited time to live, their priorities shift considerably. Making money drops down the list and spending time with family and friends goes up the list. Did you used to see these friends a lot more before your diagnosis? Or is it just that you perceive they are not communicating because, where your desire to be with friends and family has increased, their life priorities have remained the same and previously they would also go long periods without communication?
I've got loads of people who I would refer to as friends (though maybe they wouldn't all/mostly refer to me as a friend!!) but plenty of them I don't see, talk to or hear from in a year or more. That's pretty normal for me and I wouldn't expect anyone I was friends with to take umbridge over it.
Perhaps the best course of action is to be proactive and send a text/facebook message/e-mail to each of these people. If they reply and the communication starts up, all is well and good, maybe they just were not sure what to say/where they stood when you told them about the lymphoma. If they ignore the first message then I'm afraid you probably have to accept that for whatever reason, they don't want to be friends anymore.
A single message is easily enough ignored if someone doesn't want to answer it so I would imagine that it should give you a good idea of who are still your friends.
Life is a journey but everyone is going to a different destination, some parts of your journey might be in a bus with many passengers which change at frequent intervals, some might be in a car with few passengers that stay for a long time. All one can do is offer a lift to the worthy ones and politely decline the unworthy... I can't remember what my point was going to be now...
(I assume I don't know you but if I do and have not been communicating, how about some far NW cragging in the second half of June?
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