In reply to toasted:
> I guess I should say, I am living in the future -sort of - I'm 42 now. And back living with parents after having lived abroad and a break up with my girlfriend.
> It's just a frightening position to be in, I can't and don't want to rely on my parents, but at the moment I don't have much choice.
> As for improving my prospects, I've been down the open university route and also gained a masters degree. Unfortunately I also suffer with chronic low self esteem. Trying to work on that but it has been an ever present in my life. That's why I'm scared - if I can't deal with it my life will be so difficult.
OK, here comes my flaming.
You didn't ask for advice; you asked for others in the same situation. However, I think you need advice and to change the situation.
At 42, with a masters - any masters - you have more skills and experience than you are selling at minimum wage. And, while I'm on for a hiding from UKC, there's some urgency in sorting it out or you risk being *very* miserable when you are older. The state pension is less than minimum wage, and you're already mid-working life.
Now, if your parents are loaded and you're going to inherit massively then maybe there's nothing to worry about. However, if they're not, and in any case for your own mental health, I reckon you should put some serious energy into looking for a more secure, better paid role.
But, having given advice unasked for, and speculated roundly about a situation I know the barest sliver of, I may as well go the whole hog and speculate that your self esteem is both cause and effect here... and that an investment (of time and energy) into "resetting it to normal" might be the best decision you make for some time. It sounds like a perfect storm - work, the end of your relationship and your moving back with parents all undermining your sense of self-worth. So seek out one of the counselling charities in your area and find someone who can help you reconstruct your self-view in a less (negatively) biased way.
The rest will follow.
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