In reply to AP Melbourne:
> I met Alex Honnold - he was charming and humble - I also climbed with Neil 'Noddy' Molnar, 'Dirty Derek' Hersey and Phil 'Jimmy' Jewell and Paul 'Me dad' Williams - all dead from silly, unnecessary solo falls!
Andy, it's not just the deaths - though, God knows, they're bad enough - but the grief, the reverberations through other lives.
I remember being in Majorca with a non-climbing girlfriend, Essex girl to her immaculate fingernails, looking up from the day-old newspaper, saying, "Do you know a climber called Derek?" And, of course, in a heartbeat, you know exactly what that means.
Oddly the day before I'd bailed from soloing a 1,000 foot route, piss easy, but just got a bad feeling 100 feet up. Felt a bit silly back at the bottom again but then, with no warning, the heavens opened and, from nowhere, freezing rain hurled down. I'd have had the same choice as Derek, sit it out and succumb to hypothermia or... go for it on wet limestone (granite in his case). Not much of a choice. Didn't Stevie identify the body? Good on him. Can't have been easy.
Met Derek and Mr Jewell at exactly the same place, outside Stoney caff, introduced by the same person, Ian Jones. Both with the same devil may care smile.
Paul - physically a beast but with an odd vulnerability.
Noddy - bold as life itself but with an eternity of vulnerability. When he died, something died in me. For years afterwards, driving through Stoney, I'd look up, thinking he'd be bouldering above Windy Ledge, as though, if you somehow wished enough, he'd be there.
I wished and wished - but he was never there.
There are no easy answers - just people you were glad you met. And maybe for that we should be grateful.
Mick