In reply to jn11111:
I'm really new to climbing, however, soloing is tempting. Still, there is that voice of reason in my head telling me "it's not time yet" Usually, I know when to abort and my head runs hundreds of scenarios of "what could possibly go wrong?". I know that it's also a mental block from progressing but at my age and all the responsibilities I have I'd rather keep that block with me.
However, I have a friend (not a part of our crew anymore exactly due to his recklessness). He's even newer to climbing but seems to have no sense of fear. Sometimes, I just expect that we will need to make a stop in A&E. What he does is pure recklessnes. If all people tell him "don't do it" and he does it, barelly sticking to the rock, all muscles shaking and he keeps pushing then, well, I'm just waiting for the worst that may happen. So far he was lucky and now he stepped back. Recklessness had more faces in this case. One thing not caring about own life but risking other people's lives... When he was supposed to be my spotter suddenly he disappeared. Just got bored spotting. I looked down, no crash pad and no spotter. Magic!
For me, pushing myself is important, but I'm always trying to think a few steps ahead assessing potential risk. There is no fun for me in being seriously injured. Sure, I would like to be able to solo one day like some other users who replied here, but some responsibilities will always take a priority over that.